i hate them

hello to all and all their beauty.

lets see,
hmm oh yeah, i was so mad yesterday!!
they got me so mad. i mean i TOLD them i need to be home by like 5:30.
cuz my sis was gonna be home then and she didnt have a key. 
so we get back to school and look at that it was 5:45!
so then like i got out...and like was rushing hector so he closed the doors and
zach locked them.
so i walked to my uncles house and then called my mom. (5:57)
turned out my sis had been waiting like 15 minutes til my mom got there.
but she didnt have her key, i did.
then they had to wait 20 more minutes and then my dad got there.
so yeah it was like 6:20.
and my mom came to pick me up.
so yeah.
i felt bad cuz my sis was waiting for so long...alone.
but oh well huh?

<3
deb

well i updated about reveille on i_am_debby so im not gonna rite about it on here.
i was thinking about it yesterday and im mad at my gma. 
yes the one who is no longer with us but with the angels.

i am mad at her cuz she has come to visit like everyone in my familia.
everyone but me.
my cousins dream about her all the time. 
and my mom says she can feel her when shes around. but i never feel my gma or dream about her.
it feels like she doesnt even bother trying to talk to me. 
i mean, i miss her so much and she cant even "contact" me.

my sis says i shouldnt be mean,
but she doesnt understand uz shes dreamt about her.
i feel so unloved.
you have no idea.

i dont want to tell anyone else in my family how i feel cuz they get all anal and say i shouldnt be mad at her.
but w.e

YAY!
baby boy!
matthew cadin dixon!!
born today!
omg he is so cute!

yay!

i want a baby so badly!

i like this small writing thing.

so i want to tell him tomorrow. should i?
i mean i want to tell him b4 i ask him to take me to the movies...
so if he doesnt like me i wont expect anything.
but if he does *crosses fingers* i wouldnt get TOO sad.

my mom wants to meet him if  we do go.
ugh. so does my cousin. 
id really rather him meet my cousin.

ok well i gotta go.
IM DYING!
guess ill tell him manana!!!

~tatanga!~

i like him so much.

its been three months and ive lost it. great. whats going to happen for the next...21? AAHHH!!

im a horrible friend.

Omfg! a knights tale was on abc on new years eve! I LOVE THAT MOVIE!!!! YAY REVEILLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok so isaac knows i need to talk to him. and has he asked about it at all? no. i am SO mad. he said, B4 he came, that we'd go to the movies. and have we? no. are we? no.  i love it when im rite. not really.

so i am attempting to write in my "DIARY" but its not working.

hey hey hey

today is the day after thanksgiving. hmmm

im here at my aunts house.

Lucky and Christi are here. theyre going to go see Harry Potter...boo.dominic is here. hes tired. its like 10:30.

ok time to go. ill update later....like WAY later.

<3

deb

wow, its been a while.

where to start.

ok happy thanksgiving!

my cousins Chris and Lorenzo are here. theyre funny. theyre from austin and have the 'white boy' accents. hehe. theyre watching cheats...and theyre laughing.

wow...today was really hard. first FAMILY holiday without my GMA. and guess what? no family. it was my dads family and one aunt from my moms side. thats all.

my cousin issac is coming down in a few weeks. yay im crazy excited. but js not coming...boo. iza got all mad at me. IZA says j is too old for me....hes not....but he is.....but oh well...

im done for today.

talk to you all soon.

deb

                   I CANT THINK i just cant. i need inspiration for my poems.....ugh.

                                                               lets see....

                                                                oh yes....

i have to call my kids today. hopefully ill get to see them manana. awe. id be happy if all of them went.

joel is so weird. he thought i was a sophomore when he graduated....that would mean i  would graduate THIS year. awe...if only. i felt SO unloved when he asked me that. i mean he doesnt care enough to know what grade im in? no im jk.

                                 im wearing my "passionate" shirt. i LOVE it.

              in YFC we colored turkeys for the teachers. awe. TEACHER APPRECIATION!!!

               marina and i talked today at YFC. awe say a prayer for her and her family.

                                                    hmm lets see. oh yes.

</font></font></strong></font></strong></a></font></strong></a> ugh. its so NOT me. i mean... EVERYONE knows who i am. but the REAL question is...."who am i?" so yeah.... so i also got tired of the fact that EVERYONE could read what i put. i mean....now i can APPROVE of who reads it. i dont have to worry about what i say on here cuz i only let the ppl who dont get THAT angry with me read it. i also wanted to change the way im writing. id like to get more emotional and not have one sentencers. maybe write it in a different way....

angie and i decided that we are going to go into the missionaries. i feel God is REALLY calling me to do that, but convincing my parents is going to be the hard part...

i am SERIOUSLY considering getting my tongue pierced after i graduate. WOO! im CRAZY excited! im not sure why though. i just want to. its weird.

ok well thats all. talk to you all later i guess.

<3 deb